Category: Through the Eyes of Wonder

My Hometown

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Each morning I sit in my father’s old chair and I listen to the birds sing as I watch the sun rise over the Bay. With a cup of coffee, my Bible and The Tao at my side, I am completely content. The long list of each day’s tasks is daunting, yet I religiously take my “quiet time” each morning before I start my day.

Thirty years away and I have found myself back home again; home to the sugar white sand, the emerald green waters, the bays and bayous. Home to the Camellias and Narcissus blooming in winter, the blackberries we pick in the spring, figs in the summer and wildflowers in the fall. Home where the conversations of hunting, fishing, sailing and surfing dominate, where the remnants of the Old South abound. Home where everyday kindnesses are common. The light conversation, enthusiasm and care between friends and strangers alike, though so often misunderstood by visitors, just help make the days pass a little smoother.

The holidays are upon us and I look forward to the decorations along Palafox I enjoyed as a child. I will support the local businesses and enjoy the charm of our historic downtown.

No, the arts are not as abundant here as they are in the big cities I enjoyed for so long. I miss the clash of cultures, the constant flow of challenging conversation, the sheer energy of Chicago, New York and Paris. Yet as much as the big city offers, so too does a small Southern town.

It is the soul of this gem of a city that makes me want to stay.

A Drive to Pickens

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This short story was written in 2011. It is a true story with the exception that the Blue Angels did not fly by that day. As local Pensacolians know, along with thousands of Navy men who have been stationed here, we are treated to their skills quite frequently. So to include them in my little story of a day on Santa Rosa Island, is not far from the truth at all. They just did not fly by the day I helped the young couple get their car out of the sand. This is a story of the natural beauty found in the Gulf South and of the gift one can give to oneself, in giving.

A Drive to Pickens

I often drive out to Fort Pickens, when I can spare an hour or two. Pickens is located on the west end of Santa Rosa Island, the last 9 miles of which are part of the Gulf Islands National Seashore. Certain stretches of the island are little more than a sandbar.

Driving with all the windows down, I watch the white sand glisten around me. The green Gulf rushes by me on the left, the Bay on my right. The sea oats bend gently, their gold and green the only accent colors on the sugary sand.

As I get closer to the end of the island, the vegetation becomes more abundant. The live oaks there are forever small by live oak standards, having endured decades of Gulf winds. They share the sandy soil with the short leaf pines, the palmettos and the majestic straight trunks of the yellow pine.

Fort Pickens comes into view. The road squeezes through the thick, brick walls, built during the 19th century. At the time, the Pass was just off the walls of the fortress.  Early etchings show the waves crashing up against the Fort. But the island is shifting ever so slowly to the west and now the Point is several hundred yards away.

Fort Pickens, used by the military for so many years, is now part of the National Park System. I continue past it and drive through an area of white frame structures, trimmed in kelly green. I find it fascinating these buildings have survived so many recent hurricanes. Yet there they stand, just as they always have:  unpretentious, classic, southern coastal architecture with porches that wrap around and plenty of windows to take advantage of the persistent breeze.

The red of a summer wildflower, mixes in with the gold oats and the tall green grasses. There are few trees at the Point.

I park my car, and though it is midsummer, few people are about. I like that. When I get out of my car, a man speaks amicably to me about the beauty of the day as he loads up his rods and reels.

“Did you catch anything?” I ask.

“No, but I don’t mind,” he answered. “It’s just so great to be here.”

“Yes, it is,” I reply. “I’m going to go walk the Point. One of my favorite things to do.”

“Well, you have a wonderful day!” He nodded with a smile, and I was on my way.

Those not of the South often misunderstand this kind of friendliness. Most likely the fisherman and I will never see each other again, but we shared a bit of warmth and spread a little joy. That’s all. No expectations, no preconceived ideas, no judgments, no fear. I wish people in other areas of the country would do the same.

The walk I take is long. I start inside the Pass at the mouth of Pensacola Bay. There are a few scuba divers and some young families. Fishing rods are propped up in the sand and their owners watch them carefully for any significant jerk. I am careful to walk under or around the fishing lines. A young man and his pretty girl give me a smile of appreciation.

Stopping at buckets to see what they have caught, the fishermen are happy to share their stories of the day’s catch. Their accents are quite thick, and I know they have driven an hour or more from the north end of the county. No matter what their station in life, I realize they are not lacking in the finer things. We smile as we recognize our commonalities.

Less than a half mile into my walk, I realize there is no one else in sight. The pristine white sand stretches in front of me. I have it all to myself. And I thank God.

The tide is going out, and the current is very strong.

The Pass is not wide here, perhaps a quarter mile. The Lighthouse and Fort Barrancus are in clear view on the other side. The Navy has a base there and beachcombers are often treated to a surprise air show as the young pilots practice their maneuvers. For now it is quiet. I can only hear the wind and the water. Then a distant motorboat passes and, suddenly, the Blue Angels fly over in perfect formation. They may be coming in from practicing their flight operations, or they may be returning home from a show. They are low, so I wave…and I hope at least one of the six pilots has seen me.  I smile. Then it is quiet, and again I hear only the wind and the water.

It gets deep very quickly in the Pass. Within a few feet from shore it can drop to eight feet.

The sand looks yellow through the shallow water, then, there is a gradation in the color from gold to pale green to a deeper and deeper green. It is so beautiful. I step in to feel the current and cool off. I go under and gaze at the color gradation from below. I decide to wait to swim until I reach the Gulf side.

From the time I was a girl, I have said a small prayer while walking the beaches.  ”Lord, help me to find one small treasure today, just one.”

The shells are seldom plentiful here along the northwestern coast of Florida. However after a storm, you can usually do some good shelling, and sometimes nature will bestow enough of one particular specimen to line the beach. Sometimes it will be sand dollars and sometimes a type of jellyfish. More often than not, there are few shells to be found other than the olive shell, scallops or the common coquina. Tiny in size, and displaying a dizzying array of colors, the coquinas live where the waves meet the shore. Walking this line, I come across patch after patch of them. As the waves push the sand back, they dig hurriedly back into their home. The ones that do not make it are left by the receding tide to die and dry out. As they dry, their beautiful shells open wide to resemble so well a butterfly, hence, their commonly used name,  the Butterfly Shell. These shells always lie gently on the sand, pushed up by the waves and sprinkled amongst the broken fragments of other shells, coloring the shore.

The Portuguese Man-o-War is a visually welcome sight with its vibrant blue bubble and violet stinging nettles. When washed up, it sits gently at the water’s edge. Yet, its looks are deceiving; the sting it delivers is known to be one of the worst in the Gulf.

Repeating to myself, “A treasure, just one treasure today, Lord.” I walk with my head bent down to take in all the wonders at my feet—patterns in the sand, the patches of seaweed, the shells, broken and whole.

I pick up a few small scallop shells for their bright color and leave the faded ones in the sand.

I find some nice olive shells worth pocketing, but no “treasure” yet.

The sandpipers scurry out of my path, and a majestic blue heron flies by. I look toward the wide expanse of white that makes up the Point in time to witness at least a hundred seagulls take flight. A sailboat passes on its way to the open Gulf.

The confluence of the waters in front of me is amazing. The Gulf meets the Pass and the waves collide with the outgoing waters of the Bay. The fury, though hardly apparent on the surface, is easily recognizable to the seasoned beachcomber. Though the surface remains relatively calm, a thin line of foam forms where the green water of the Gulf meets the brown, brackish water. The tide line can be seen well out from the shore.

I decide it would be wise to walk well beyond the Point to avoid the undertow.

Walking east now with the Gulf of Mexico stretching out for hundreds of miles to my right. The Yucatan Peninsula is straight south from here as I stand at the edge of the North American Continent.

I feel so small and yet so large. I am one with this incredible beauty. I am a part.

A small point reaches out from shore, creating a calm pool in which to swim.

It is waiting for me. It was created for me to enjoy. I thank God.

Taking off my shorts, tossing down my towel, I dive in. Swimming beneath the surface, I am in awe of the color around me. The white sand below and the deep, pure green that reaches out into the distance, mesmerize me. Suspended beneath the surface, I wish I could stay there much longer than my breath will allow. When my lungs force me up, I swim until I am 40 to 50 yards from shore.

The view is excellent, so I tread water for a while in order to take it all in: the old lighthouse across the Pass, a WWI-era tower, Fort McRae to the west, a few boats.  Finally, I lie back and float. It is so easy to float in the heavy salt water of the Gulf. My toes pop up, my palms face the sun and I am soon close to sleep.

I rest. I swim. I imagine I am a mermaid and move beneath the surface toward the shore. Once there, I spread out my towel and nap in the hot sun.

After a while, I awake, cool off in the Gulf and begin my walk back around the Point. Walking where the water meets the sand, I continue my search for the day’s treasure.

Shells drift up and down the small incline with the gentle waves.  I face the Gulf and scan the area within a few feet from shore. A perfect olive shell rolls back and forth with the waves, and I grab it.

The deep auburn fragment of a fighting conch is worth pocketing, as are a few well-patterned scallops. I see coquinas aplenty in their infinite variety of colors and designs. I see the tiny holes of the sand fleas as they scurry beneath the wet sand.

Then I spot my treasure, a delicate murex. Not more than two inches long, the prickly spines are intact. Although the very tip of the thin spire is broken, it is the best I have yet to find. The murex will take a place of honor on my kitchen windowsill where I will enjoy its beauty every day.

It is time to pick up the pace and head home. A flock of pelicans fly by and head toward the Bay. Two dolphins swim some 50 yards offshore and seem to be enjoying their day as well. I watch their dorsal fins playfully rise above and dip below the water’s surface, rise and dip again and again.

Within a half hour I am back at the small parking lot, where I slide under the outdoor shower to rinse the salt off my skin and the sand off my feet.  Using the hose to rinse my shells, a young boy stops to look at what I have found.  We share a smile as I tell him the names of the shells and offer him an olive to take home. He thanks me, and I am on my way.

Some five or six miles down the stretch of lonely highway,  a young couple is struggling to get their car out of the sand. “Oh dear,” I think to myself. “They obviously have no idea what they are doing.” When I was a girl, we never saw African Americans at the Point. I am happy they have come to enjoy the island’s beauty, but I can tell they, like so many other visitors, have never learned the rules of parking on the sand. I park my car and step out.

“Hi! Do y’all need some help?” I ask, as I walk towards them.

“Yeah, got stuck tryin’ to turn my wheels ‘round.” replies the tall, thin man.

“Well, rule number one when parking on the beach is that you never allow both of the front wheels or both the back wheels to get in the sand. You’ll get stuck every time. This is what we have to do….” I start an explanation as I approach the front of the car. Then, I notice the toddler.

“There’s a baby in the car?” I ask.  Motioning toward the child’s mother, I continue, “You two need to get out and stand over there, well away from the car.”

The full-bodied young woman gets out of the back seat with their precious daughter and gives me a smile of appreciation.

Kneeling down next to one of the wheels I begin to dig the sand out from around and behind it. The man goes to the other side and does the same. The front wheels are just a foot or two from the pavement. The back wheels are secure on the road.

“Once we dig the wheels out a bit,” I explain, “you’ll push and lift the front end while I put the car in reverse and hit the gas, OK?”

“OK,” he replies.

After a few minutes, we give it a shot. The wheels spin madly and kick up more sand, but the car goes nowhere.

“Let’s dig it out some more,” I say as I hop out of the car and start pushing more sand away.

A young man in khaki shorts and a designer shirt stops his BMW to help.

“Hi, thanks for stopping. They’re stuck. You know what to do, right? We need to dig the wheels out some more.”

“No, I don’t know what to do.”

“You never got stuck out here as a kid?” I ask.

“No, I’m not from around here.”

I stop digging and stand up, brushing the clean sand off my knees.

“OK. Well, it’s real important to remember never to allow both of the front wheels or both the back wheels to ever get in the sand. You’ll get stuck every time. You have to park parallel to the pavement and only allow two wheels on the same side of the car to touch the sand.  So, we have to dig the wheels out some more. Then, I’ll put the car in reverse and hit the gas while y’all push and lift the front end up at the same time, OK?”

“OK,” he says. I watch these two young men from different worlds work together.

When I try the gas again, we still have no luck. The wheels spin madly, but the car still doesn’t move an inch. As I get out of the car again, two older men in a pickup slow down. I notice not only their long, gray beards, but the gun rack mounted on the back window and the towline in the truck’s bed.

“Can we give y’all a haynd?  We got this here tow that’ll pull that car out in no time flat.” True rednecks, I think to myself as I notice the full cheek of one, which was, no doubt, evidence of chewing tobacco.

“Gosh, that would be great!” I reply.

They back the truck up and begin to hook the car up to the cable.

“Well, I guess y’all have it taken care of. This is so nice of you! We tried to dig it out, but the wheels just kept spinning in place.”

“Yeah, this soft sand out here, it’s like mud just about. Ain’t no getting’ a car out if you get both front wheels off the road.”

“Or both the back!” I add.

“That’s the truth.” he replies.

“Well, I’m going to take off then. Thank you.”  I wave to the young couple and say, “Good luck to y’all, and have a nice day.”

Turning to the young man, I can’t help but think he’s some kind of professional. “Thank you for stopping to help. I really appreciate it.”

“No problem,” the man says as he gets back into his BMW.

Driving off, I look in my rearview mirror. The two rednecks and the young, black man work together hooking up the car, while the little girl and her mother stand off to the side.

Look what I have been a part of.” I think to myself, “Life is good!” and I continue down the narrow stretch of island toward home.

Copyright 2012 by Margaret E. Biggs

Cape San Blas, FL. July 2012

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Cape San Blas July 2012

Meeting old friends near The Cape. A beat up cabin nestled in the woods amongst the pines and palmettos. St. Joe Bay a short walk away. The last remnants of Old Florida still exist to this day in a few areas, and this is one.

Morning spent walking the mudflats as the Bay is very shallow and the tide is out. There are horseshoe crabs and seashells, a few scallops and the fragile shells of the Sea Urchin. The Bay is a mirror of the morning sky. The stillness is stunning. And I thank God.

Our day’s adventure begins with a walk up the Bay. We soak up the natural beauty. Collecting a few sea urchins, abandoned shells and driftwood, I am happy with the day’s finds. The walk is leisurely as we want to see all we can see and smell all the smells, let the sea air permeate our bodies and the warm saltwater soak into our skin. There is little conversation. Hours pass.

Of the 5 or 6 times I have walked The Cape I have only managed to find the path across twice. It is not well marked but no matter as few people bother with the trek.

It is hot and we carry our water and lunch in a backpack. The crickets sing.

With a storm approaching from the East, the decision is made to cross over to the Gulf though once again we did not find the path and it is nowhere in sight.

We walk over the dune and into the heavily wooded interior of Cape San Blas. Through the Scrub Oaks, Short Leaf Pine and Palmettos we wind, marveling at the beauty of the deep greens above us and the rust color of the pine needles at our feet.

There are large areas of Deer Moss, inviting a touch. As children we collected it to use around the Manger Scene at Christmas. My Canadian friend’s responds that they would buy it for the same reason. Lucky me. Though we watch for  small cacti and thorny vines, we inevitably get scratched.  No matter as we can hear The Gulf in the distance and we continue on.

The trees are not tall.  The foliage above is thick and we can see little of the sky. There are no strong shadows and we are grateful for the clouds that have rolled in as it is a relief from the heat. We feel the air cool and are compelled to move faster so as to avoid the thunderstorm, if we can.

A hill covered in pine needles is spotted in the distance. It is difficult to climb as our feet slide in the fine sand. It is an opportunity to see where we are and we crawl up and slide and crawl up again through the top of the trees to a view that is spectacular. The blue-green waters of the Gulf can be seen beyond the large, sparkling white dunes which are dotted with golden sea oats and the sculptural formations of the oaks, shaped by decades of enduring harsh winds.

Behind us is a valley of green we know to be the top of the maritime forest undisturbed by man. We gasp at its expanse having just been lost in its interior beauty. The green of the treetops contrast beautifully with the dark gray of the approaching storm beyond and when we turn around to take in the Gulf view, the clear sky above her is a testament to the rapidly changing weather of summer.

Dolphins are spotted near shore and we follow the lead of our children running with abandon down the large dune feeling as though we are no older than they.

Though we know better than to swim with a storm so nearby, we must. All of us relish the cool, salty water, we splash, float and swim with smiles. Thunder is the sign there is no more time to swim and we all head towards shore. With leisure we eat our sandwiches as though the day is clear. There is no place to take cover other than below a large oak, which would be unwise. A storm so large will have powerful lightening should it break and the last place one should take shelter is below anything relatively tall. We are wet already anyway and the walk down the Gulf to the car is far. No reason to worry as there is little we can do to avoid the storm. After a while we begin our walk.  Daniel walks closer to the dunes to look for shells at the high tide line. Ben stops at each roped area protecting the buried eggs of a sea turtle.

My two sons walk together well ahead of the rest. We are often fifty yards or more apart in our own inner world basking in the beauty of this incredible place.

The rain never did fall. Our adventure ends with the walk through the pines and palmettos to our car.

A Trip to Port St. Joe

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Last month, I participated in 4 shows in as many weeks. It was a busy    October. There were shows in Fairhope, Pensacola, Destin and Pensacola,    again. I ended the fall shows with The Great Gulf Coast Art Fest in  my  hometown. How welcome I was by old friends and new.

There were many art enthusiasts who, on seeing my work for the first time,  appreciated it on many levels, particularly my unique depiction of our Gulf  Coast.

On a national level this art festival is rated very well and draws hundreds of  thousands of people from several states.

I am so very grateful for the sales I made and extremely fulfilled by the many compliments I received and the people whose hearts I so clearly touched. Thank you to all who came by my booth and shared in my vision.

I took off for Port St. Joe to recharge last weekend. A 3 hour drive east of Pensacola, it is an easy get-away destination. I have been there several times before. The last three times I have rented a small cottage at the base of St. Joe Bay. Tucked away in the Pines, Oaks and Palmettos, there is little in the way of modern comforts.

But there is a screened in porch, a fabulous view and the prettiest sunsets. There is the sound of the Gulf and the stillness of the Bay. There are pelicans and seagulls, osprey and egrets, seashells, horseshoe crabs and the smell of salt in the air. There are no sounds of man. Quiet. Mother nature. The sea. And me.

There is Cape San Blas nearby which affords the naturalist a walk of incredible beauty. Miles and miles of Cape and there is nothing to see but beach, bay, pines, scrub oaks and palmettos, wild deer, sea life and seashells. Dunes of sugar white welcomed me as I crossed the Cape to the Gulf Side. There the view changes and the sound of the waves fill my ears, the wind cools my skin, and seashells fill my pockets.  I am at one with my surroundings.

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There is the Lighthouse and the beach of fallen trees. There is the charming town of Apalachicola, with it’s slow pace, southern comforts, fisherman, boats, porches and oysters. There is Mexico Beach, St. Vincent Island and St. George. No coffee shops or movie theaters. No fancy restaurants, few clothing stores and only a hand full of low-key bars.

There is however, a Piggly Wiggly with bacon sold in 10 pound packages, fried pork rinds, pork neck bones, a fishing rod display and collard greens by the cart full. There are racks of dollar toys I remember seeing as a girl. I bought a Port St. Joe Piggly Wiggly coffee mug to bring home as a souvenir, along with my large bag of shells, my 5 prize specimens and the nicest piece of driftwood I have collected to date!

One day  I will return.

Tuesday Morning in the Fall

Tuesday Morning, Nov. 8, 2011

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It is cool out, about 65 degrees. I can hear the wind in the trees, the bird’s chirping, the cars rushing by on 98.

My father would be able to tell me the names of the bird’s whose sweet sound I focus on.

The sound of the traffic is minimal in my mind.

It is fall here in the Deep South.

Though the change of seasons is much less apparent here, it is there just the same.

There is less humidity in the air and so the sky is much clearer.

When the midday sun hits the bay, it “sparkles like diamonds,” as my father would say.

The seaweed and algae are gone and so the Gulf is crystal clear too.

The Bull Rays migrate this time of year and are a joy to see “flying” through the green waters in schools.

The Sea Oats have scattered their seeds and are now just tall stems swaying

in the grass in the wind.

The beaches are less crowded and the wildflowers are in bloom.

Bright yellow and deep red dot the end of the Island and in the woods there

are accents of a pale purple too.

My mother would know all the names of the wildflowers.

I will learn them with time.

A Wednesday Afternoon

rocks, shell, water piece, mirror Mid week and all is well though it is hard to stay put in the studio when there is much to do to help save our Gulf from future disasters such as the Deepwater Horizon explosion. I joined the Emerald Coastkeepers not long before. This organization works to keep our area waters clean. I am so grateful to Chasidy Fisher Hobbs, Elizabeth McWilliams and Mike Papantonio for all they  do. I am on board and doing my best as well. The art I donated brought in close to $1000 for ECK and I am now in charge of organizing the Hands Across the Sand event to be held on Sat., June 26th. We will gather at the Pensacola Beach Pier at 11:00 and join hands for 15 minutes at 12 Noon. This is not a protest. It is about preserving our Gulf, our beaches and the estuaries where so much of the Gulf’s seafood is spawned. It is about preserving a way of life for millions of people. Please join us here on Pensacola Beach or in a city near you. We started as a statewide event in Florida back in Feb. and have now grown to include 16 other states! Please help us in our efforts to promote clean energy and ban offshore drilling. Our nation can do anything once we put our minds to it! Let us be a leader in preserving our beautiful planet. We can all help in our own small way. Ride bikes more, carpool, use less plastic, recycle, wear sweaters indoors in the winter and turn down the heat…use the AC less and good old fashioned fans more. Let’s simplify and help to preserve our planet for our children and future generations. Please visit these sites, www.emeraldcoastkeeper.org and www.handsacrossthesand.com. Join us in a  Hands Across the Sand event near you. If there is not one yet organized in your city, please consider organizing one yourself. It is not hard as the founder David Rauschkolb of Grayton Beach, FL has made it very easy. The time is now.

Pictured above are portions of two paintings I am currently working on. In the left foreground is the beginning of another in the “Schoolhouse Beach” series. It is a 48×24″ painting. The rocks of this painting take up approximately 70% of the piece. The lake will be in view beyond. The unfinished rocks towards the top are laid out in acrylic after an initial sketch. I then start what I most enjoy, the many layers of oil color that make the rocks come alive. I was lying down when I took the photo which is the inspiration for this particular piece. Most of the others in this series are drawn from vertical photographs I took standing with my toes just slightly out of view. The piece entitled “Rocky Shore” was also painted from this point of view. However I did change one color for “Rocky Shore”. I normally use the same six or seven colors, which is one of the reasons my work has a clear style though my subject matter varies. (within the realm of beach magic, of course) The palette includes a sap green (similar to a forest green) in five out of the six Schoolhouse Beach pieces, with the exception being “Rocky Shore”. In this painting I substituted the Sap Green for a Turquoise Green. My, how the entire palette changed! I find it fascinating how the substitution of one color can change a painting so very much. “Rocky Shore” can be viewed in the Print Section of my site.

In the background is a 48×60″ piece I have started of the surface of the Bay on a calm day. It will be similar in feel to “Water’s Calm” which sold last summer before I even had it displayed at the Pensacola Museum of Art Show. Additionally the collector bought it sight unseen… other than the photo on my site. It takes a lot out of me to compose these pieces. Funny I should say “compose”. Yet that is exactly what I am doing. My photograph is simply a starting point. Even at this early stage it would be hard for most to see which photo this piece is derived from. No matter, I try to paint the calm, the peace, the beauty that can be experienced in as common a gift as the water’s surface. The designs and color are all there. The water is very clean. I just bump up the contrast, add to the color, stylize a little then abstract just a touch and my “voice” is heard. I  listen to classical music when I paint. As I composed this piece I was listening to Handel’s “Water Music”. Fitting, I think and it is one of my favorites. Pachabel’s Canon is another.

On the stand to the right is a broken shell I found many years ago, stuck in some clay. I find broken shells to be just fascinating. The shape, the inside merging with the outside, all the colors that can be found in a white. As I find myself in middle age, I also think of them as analogies to the beauty that is a part of aging. I wonder what this shell once looked like in all her glory? She is faded now, and broken. Yet, she is wiser too. Experience will do that to a person, if that person chooses to learn. So far I love growing older. I am so happy now. I will paint this “Faded Beauty” on a 24×48″ canvas. She is a free spirit. As I often like to do, I will paint her to hang both vertically and horizontally.

For some reason I want to close with a poem I wrote about a month ago. My son says it is sad. I don’t think so. It is just an explanation of how I have learned to live.

My Heart Bleeds

My heart bleeds.
I push away the pain.
Like ghosts lurking,
I live with the darkness.
I force myself to focus on light,
Yet my heart still bleeds.

I pull my mind back to the present.
I hear the birds sing.
I smell the scents of spring.
Yet my heart remains heavy.

Memories creep in of long ago,
the more recent past.
Loneliness and despair,
So little love,
And so my heart still bleeds.

I pull my mind back to the present.
Will it always be so?
A back and forth, I slowly grow.
I pull my mind back to the only reality.

I hear the birds sing.
I smell the scents of spring.
I will walk to the water today
and give my love away.
I will talk to the One.
With patience I will run.

And I will surely grow.

5/2010

Copyright 2010 Margaret Elizabeth Biggs

A Walk to the Sound

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The Gulf is angry. It has been for several days. The oil spill looms some 100 miles from shore and we wait anxiously. Our pristine beaches are threatened. The sugar-white sands may be blackened for decades.  The Emerald green waters stained. This looks as though it will be the worst oil spill in history.

The effects are widespread. The full extent of the damage will not be known for generations. Twelve days later, the pipe still leaks. They don’t know how to turn the flow off. It is all due to greed. A simple turn-off valve that should be inserted in every one of the drills but is not required in the U.S. due to the oil lobbyist and their corporations unwillingness to pay the cost. So we will pay the cost in the loss of wildlife and our beautiful shores.

I picked blackberries as I walked. Enouph to fill another another pie. I saw a snake in the grass. It was not the harmless black snake we toyed with as children, so I kept my distance.

The Magnolias are in bloom.  The trees are now decorated with the full flowers of creamy white that stretch out large and wide and fill the surrounding air with a sweet, lemon smell. I saw a snowy white egret take flight in the marsh just beyond a particularly generous blackberry patch.

When I reached the Sound the wind blew hard on my face, the white caps a telling sign of a dangerous surf just beyond. This body of water was formed only by a thin barrier island of sand. I will drive out to the Gulf later today for what could be one last glance in a very long time of what is known to be the world’s whitest beaches.

My heart bleeds. I will start a painting today, similar to my Schoolhouse Beach series in composition but with the green waters of the Gulf and what is for now and always has been,the most beautiful sand that can be found anywhere. I pray that somehow, they will stay so incredibly pristine forever.

Friday at Noon

It’s beautiful out. 70 degrees or so and clear. Gusty. A very fine day indeed.

Perfect for painting. I have  wind chimes and they sing gently. The  tops of the trees dance a slow waltz with the wind.

My dog sleeps on the warm brown leaves of a Live Oak tree.

I am painting a 48×24″ for the Faded Beauty series. As I often do, she can be hung both vertically and horizontally.

I am creating her standing though.

She is a worn whelk. A shell I have painted before.

I started the piece about ten days ago. Struggled for a while and am again gliding.

Have a nice day.

ChanneledWhelk

I Am a Shell

Camelias and seashells It has been a beautiful spring. The camelias were still blooming when the azaleas began to open, which is very unusual. Normally the last of the camellias have long since fallen before the vibrant fuchsia of the azalea bushes color the South. Now I am watching the blackberry vines, as their white petals begin to fall revealing the tiniest of green berries. Cobbler time is not far away as I look forward to blackberry picking for the first time in many years.

I have started a fourth in my “Faded Beauty” series. It is a 24×48″ and like many of my shells, will be suitable to hang both vertically and horizontally. A worn and weathered whelk, unbroken but for a few chips on her lip. The waves have worn away this shell’s original outward beauty. She is smoother now, less prized by many, unnoticed by some. So be it…the beauty the aged shells have is there, if we are only willing to see.

I am reminded of a poem I wrote about a year ago. I was a few hours into painting another shell when it came to me.  It is entitled: I Am a Shell.

I am a Shell,

A Shell of who I once was,

A Shell of who I will become,

Worn smooth with time.

Beautiful from experience.

Broken yet whole.

Deep in my body,

Singing the song of the Ocean

When I am still and all is quiet

And I listen.

All the best to you and your loved ones.

Agape,

Margaret

copyright 2010 Margaret E. Biggs

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