“Caroline”

Having completed “Caroline, ” she was immediately purchased and now hangs in the living room of the woman for whom she is named. This collector is a lifelong friend who spends a minimal amount of time on the internet and so had not read my FB posts or earlier Blog on the piece. Yet she was taken aback by her beauty and spent no time in making the decision to add the painting to her fine collection.
There are those who make art to shock, to inform, to educate. There are those who make art for the art world of high end collectors, art connoisseurs and art critics. Choosing to make art for the rest of the populace, I will continue to communicate what one admirer calls the “simplified, strong and beautiful” imagery that I do.

"Caroline" 30x30" Oil

“Caroline” 30×30″ Oil

Thoughts on a Composition

The first of three layers....

The first of three layers....

The first of three layers is done. Laying out the composition is the most difficult part of creating a successful painting. The subject becomes a reference and the painting takes on a life of it’s own. There is much more to my paintings than a chosen subject depicted with paint on a canvas.

Paying careful attention to the shapes within the piece, I see more than what is actually there. I see lines intersecting and shapes converging, abstraction within realism. There is stillness within motion, fluidity and peace. There is a woman of strength, a lady of kindness, and a little girl.

All of this is there within one flower. It is there because I have put it there. It is what I see.

Now to apply the second two layers of paint to this canvas. The piece has been carefully laid out. The final colors will be chosen, the careful shading will be applied. She is beautiful. She is a Steel Magnolia. She is Caroline.

Another Blank Canvas

Blank canvas look

It is always very intimidating when one starts a new piece. Today I am starting a triptych. It’s a painting I have done before on a smaller scale. Yet I still look at those blank canvases and I wonder if the finished painting will be a success.

Will I be able to create a pleasing image out of several tubes of paint, many brushes and a white canvas?

I try to have the attitude that every painting is practice for the next one. I have been given the opportunity to be paid to learn to be a better, and better, and better artist.

Through my medium I vow to communicate the beauty, and the peacefulness, the calm and the magnificence that can be found by the sea.

Not every painting works out. That is a given. Yet as long as I continue to hear from my audience that my work is peaceful and calming, as long as I continue to challenge myself and improve my technique, as long as my imagery is both peaceful and strong, then I will consider myself a success.

A New Year

Broken Pear Shell

Broken Pear Shell

The New Year is here yet again……..

With enthusiasm and hope I turn my sights to this new beginning and all the wonderful opportunities before me.

This is a poem I wrote a few years back on Resolutions. I hope that it resonates with you. Blessings……..

Resolutions

A Christmas come and gone once more…

Another year of one’s own lore,

To contemplate and create anew…

The coming year’s resolves, a few.

To write upon the weary pages,

Of one’s own heart, alive yet faded.


Resolutions made and lost,

Triumphs yes, disappointments, cost.

To look at one’s own life and see

The need to change, to grow to be

A kinder, patient, more loving soul,

Rekindle hope in one’s own role,

As giver to the one’s we love,

A calming presence, a peaceful dove.


So far from this I clearly see,

The many flaws that make up me.

Yet hope I choose to hold on to,

The belief in Change Within, Renew.

For in one’s change within, alone,

Lies the key to the difference shown…

In every smile and happy face,

The difference from despair, to grace.

Jan. 2009

Copyright Margaret Elizabeth Biggs

My Hometown

Sunrise

Each morning I sit in my father’s old chair and I listen to the birds sing as I watch the sun rise over the Bay. With a cup of coffee, my Bible and The Tao at my side, I am completely content. The long list of each day’s tasks is daunting, yet I religiously take my “quiet time” each morning before I start my day.

Thirty years away and I have found myself back home again; home to the sugar white sand, the emerald green waters, the bays and bayous. Home to the Camellias and Narcissus blooming in winter, the blackberries we pick in the spring, figs in the summer and wildflowers in the fall. Home where the conversations of hunting, fishing, sailing and surfing dominate, where the remnants of the Old South abound. Home where everyday kindnesses are common. The light conversation, enthusiasm and care between friends and strangers alike, though so often misunderstood by visitors, just help make the days pass a little smoother.

The holidays are upon us and I look forward to the decorations along Palafox I enjoyed as a child. I will support the local businesses and enjoy the charm of our historic downtown.

No, the arts are not as abundant here as they are in the big cities I enjoyed for so long. I miss the clash of cultures, the constant flow of challenging conversation, the sheer energy of Chicago, New York and Paris. Yet as much as the big city offers, so too does a small Southern town.

It is the soul of this gem of a city that makes me want to stay.

More thoughts on the piece “Shell Spiral.”

"Shell Spiral" 24x24" Oil on Canvas

"Shell Spiral" 24x24" Oil on Canvas

This depiction of a broken shell is one of hope and inner beauty. The inside of a seashell is to me, every bit as beautiful as the outer. This shell was found on wet sand having just been washed up by the early morning tide. It faces the rising sun, broken and beautiful with the perfection of youth at its’ side.

Outer beauty will eventually fade over time, should we be lucky enough to reach old age. It creeps up on us, the lines and wrinkles, the extra weight and graying hair. Yet it is the inner beauty of people that has the greatest and longest effect on others.

Have you ever known someone who’s love spread to everyone, yet his appearance was far less than attractive by society’s standards? I remember someone saying to me that a friend of mine, who was just such a person, was unattractive. I was taken aback. It had never occurred to me that someone might find Earl unattractive.

Because his inner beauty was so great, to those that knew him he was no less than absolutely handsome.

Earl was taken from us at an early age, yet his positive impact on others will last for many, many decades.

May we all work towards the kind of inner beauty just such people possess.

Oct. 27, 2012 Update…..

“The Bay is sparkling like diamonds,” my father likes to say. So it is today. The angle of the sun in the fall and winter combined with the clarity of the sky produces this effect.

It’s a welcome sight on a busy Saturday with many loose strings to wrap up before the coming week. I had to back out of the Destin Festival of Arts due to a root canal gone awry. There has been tremendous discomfort.  The pain comes and goes in waves. Sleep and daily duties occupy my time in between.

My apologies. Life has a tendency to “get in the way,” doesn’t it?

Oh well, I will keep on keeping on!

That’s all any of us can do….don’t you agree?

There are canvases to sign, others to frame, a painting that needs a bit of extra work and another that I hope to finish before the next show in Atlanta.

Then there is office work and laundry, the house to clean and errands to run.

Getting things done one at a time and enjoying the view while I do.

Lucky me!

A Drive to Pickens

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This short story was written in 2011. It is a true story with the exception that the Blue Angels did not fly by that day. As local Pensacolians know, along with thousands of Navy men who have been stationed here, we are treated to their skills quite frequently. So to include them in my little story of a day on Santa Rosa Island, is not far from the truth at all. They just did not fly by the day I helped the young couple get their car out of the sand. This is a story of the natural beauty found in the Gulf South and of the gift one can give to oneself, in giving.

A Drive to Pickens

I often drive out to Fort Pickens, when I can spare an hour or two. Pickens is located on the west end of Santa Rosa Island, the last 9 miles of which are part of the Gulf Islands National Seashore. Certain stretches of the island are little more than a sandbar.

Driving with all the windows down, I watch the white sand glisten around me. The green Gulf rushes by me on the left, the Bay on my right. The sea oats bend gently, their gold and green the only accent colors on the sugary sand.

As I get closer to the end of the island, the vegetation becomes more abundant. The live oaks there are forever small by live oak standards, having endured decades of Gulf winds. They share the sandy soil with the short leaf pines, the palmettos and the majestic straight trunks of the yellow pine.

Fort Pickens comes into view. The road squeezes through the thick, brick walls, built during the 19th century. At the time, the Pass was just off the walls of the fortress.  Early etchings show the waves crashing up against the Fort. But the island is shifting ever so slowly to the west and now the Point is several hundred yards away.

Fort Pickens, used by the military for so many years, is now part of the National Park System. I continue past it and drive through an area of white frame structures, trimmed in kelly green. I find it fascinating these buildings have survived so many recent hurricanes. Yet there they stand, just as they always have:  unpretentious, classic, southern coastal architecture with porches that wrap around and plenty of windows to take advantage of the persistent breeze.

The red of a summer wildflower, mixes in with the gold oats and the tall green grasses. There are few trees at the Point.

I park my car, and though it is midsummer, few people are about. I like that. When I get out of my car, a man speaks amicably to me about the beauty of the day as he loads up his rods and reels.

“Did you catch anything?” I ask.

“No, but I don’t mind,” he answered. “It’s just so great to be here.”

“Yes, it is,” I reply. “I’m going to go walk the Point. One of my favorite things to do.”

“Well, you have a wonderful day!” He nodded with a smile, and I was on my way.

Those not of the South often misunderstand this kind of friendliness. Most likely the fisherman and I will never see each other again, but we shared a bit of warmth and spread a little joy. That’s all. No expectations, no preconceived ideas, no judgments, no fear. I wish people in other areas of the country would do the same.

The walk I take is long. I start inside the Pass at the mouth of Pensacola Bay. There are a few scuba divers and some young families. Fishing rods are propped up in the sand and their owners watch them carefully for any significant jerk. I am careful to walk under or around the fishing lines. A young man and his pretty girl give me a smile of appreciation.

Stopping at buckets to see what they have caught, the fishermen are happy to share their stories of the day’s catch. Their accents are quite thick, and I know they have driven an hour or more from the north end of the county. No matter what their station in life, I realize they are not lacking in the finer things. We smile as we recognize our commonalities.

Less than a half mile into my walk, I realize there is no one else in sight. The pristine white sand stretches in front of me. I have it all to myself. And I thank God.

The tide is going out, and the current is very strong.

The Pass is not wide here, perhaps a quarter mile. The Lighthouse and Fort Barrancus are in clear view on the other side. The Navy has a base there and beachcombers are often treated to a surprise air show as the young pilots practice their maneuvers. For now it is quiet. I can only hear the wind and the water. Then a distant motorboat passes and, suddenly, the Blue Angels fly over in perfect formation. They may be coming in from practicing their flight operations, or they may be returning home from a show. They are low, so I wave…and I hope at least one of the six pilots has seen me.  I smile. Then it is quiet, and again I hear only the wind and the water.

It gets deep very quickly in the Pass. Within a few feet from shore it can drop to eight feet.

The sand looks yellow through the shallow water, then, there is a gradation in the color from gold to pale green to a deeper and deeper green. It is so beautiful. I step in to feel the current and cool off. I go under and gaze at the color gradation from below. I decide to wait to swim until I reach the Gulf side.

From the time I was a girl, I have said a small prayer while walking the beaches.  ”Lord, help me to find one small treasure today, just one.”

The shells are seldom plentiful here along the northwestern coast of Florida. However after a storm, you can usually do some good shelling, and sometimes nature will bestow enough of one particular specimen to line the beach. Sometimes it will be sand dollars and sometimes a type of jellyfish. More often than not, there are few shells to be found other than the olive shell, scallops or the common coquina. Tiny in size, and displaying a dizzying array of colors, the coquinas live where the waves meet the shore. Walking this line, I come across patch after patch of them. As the waves push the sand back, they dig hurriedly back into their home. The ones that do not make it are left by the receding tide to die and dry out. As they dry, their beautiful shells open wide to resemble so well a butterfly, hence, their commonly used name,  the Butterfly Shell. These shells always lie gently on the sand, pushed up by the waves and sprinkled amongst the broken fragments of other shells, coloring the shore.

The Portuguese Man-o-War is a visually welcome sight with its vibrant blue bubble and violet stinging nettles. When washed up, it sits gently at the water’s edge. Yet, its looks are deceiving; the sting it delivers is known to be one of the worst in the Gulf.

Repeating to myself, “A treasure, just one treasure today, Lord.” I walk with my head bent down to take in all the wonders at my feet—patterns in the sand, the patches of seaweed, the shells, broken and whole.

I pick up a few small scallop shells for their bright color and leave the faded ones in the sand.

I find some nice olive shells worth pocketing, but no “treasure” yet.

The sandpipers scurry out of my path, and a majestic blue heron flies by. I look toward the wide expanse of white that makes up the Point in time to witness at least a hundred seagulls take flight. A sailboat passes on its way to the open Gulf.

The confluence of the waters in front of me is amazing. The Gulf meets the Pass and the waves collide with the outgoing waters of the Bay. The fury, though hardly apparent on the surface, is easily recognizable to the seasoned beachcomber. Though the surface remains relatively calm, a thin line of foam forms where the green water of the Gulf meets the brown, brackish water. The tide line can be seen well out from the shore.

I decide it would be wise to walk well beyond the Point to avoid the undertow.

Walking east now with the Gulf of Mexico stretching out for hundreds of miles to my right. The Yucatan Peninsula is straight south from here as I stand at the edge of the North American Continent.

I feel so small and yet so large. I am one with this incredible beauty. I am a part.

A small point reaches out from shore, creating a calm pool in which to swim.

It is waiting for me. It was created for me to enjoy. I thank God.

Taking off my shorts, tossing down my towel, I dive in. Swimming beneath the surface, I am in awe of the color around me. The white sand below and the deep, pure green that reaches out into the distance, mesmerize me. Suspended beneath the surface, I wish I could stay there much longer than my breath will allow. When my lungs force me up, I swim until I am 40 to 50 yards from shore.

The view is excellent, so I tread water for a while in order to take it all in: the old lighthouse across the Pass, a WWI-era tower, Fort McRae to the west, a few boats.  Finally, I lie back and float. It is so easy to float in the heavy salt water of the Gulf. My toes pop up, my palms face the sun and I am soon close to sleep.

I rest. I swim. I imagine I am a mermaid and move beneath the surface toward the shore. Once there, I spread out my towel and nap in the hot sun.

After a while, I awake, cool off in the Gulf and begin my walk back around the Point. Walking where the water meets the sand, I continue my search for the day’s treasure.

Shells drift up and down the small incline with the gentle waves.  I face the Gulf and scan the area within a few feet from shore. A perfect olive shell rolls back and forth with the waves, and I grab it.

The deep auburn fragment of a fighting conch is worth pocketing, as are a few well-patterned scallops. I see coquinas aplenty in their infinite variety of colors and designs. I see the tiny holes of the sand fleas as they scurry beneath the wet sand.

Then I spot my treasure, a delicate murex. Not more than two inches long, the prickly spines are intact. Although the very tip of the thin spire is broken, it is the best I have yet to find. The murex will take a place of honor on my kitchen windowsill where I will enjoy its beauty every day.

It is time to pick up the pace and head home. A flock of pelicans fly by and head toward the Bay. Two dolphins swim some 50 yards offshore and seem to be enjoying their day as well. I watch their dorsal fins playfully rise above and dip below the water’s surface, rise and dip again and again.

Within a half hour I am back at the small parking lot, where I slide under the outdoor shower to rinse the salt off my skin and the sand off my feet.  Using the hose to rinse my shells, a young boy stops to look at what I have found.  We share a smile as I tell him the names of the shells and offer him an olive to take home. He thanks me, and I am on my way.

Some five or six miles down the stretch of lonely highway,  a young couple is struggling to get their car out of the sand. “Oh dear,” I think to myself. “They obviously have no idea what they are doing.” When I was a girl, we never saw African Americans at the Point. I am happy they have come to enjoy the island’s beauty, but I can tell they, like so many other visitors, have never learned the rules of parking on the sand. I park my car and step out.

“Hi! Do y’all need some help?” I ask, as I walk towards them.

“Yeah, got stuck tryin’ to turn my wheels ‘round.” replies the tall, thin man.

“Well, rule number one when parking on the beach is that you never allow both of the front wheels or both the back wheels to get in the sand. You’ll get stuck every time. This is what we have to do….” I start an explanation as I approach the front of the car. Then, I notice the toddler.

“There’s a baby in the car?” I ask.  Motioning toward the child’s mother, I continue, “You two need to get out and stand over there, well away from the car.”

The full-bodied young woman gets out of the back seat with their precious daughter and gives me a smile of appreciation.

Kneeling down next to one of the wheels I begin to dig the sand out from around and behind it. The man goes to the other side and does the same. The front wheels are just a foot or two from the pavement. The back wheels are secure on the road.

“Once we dig the wheels out a bit,” I explain, “you’ll push and lift the front end while I put the car in reverse and hit the gas, OK?”

“OK,” he replies.

After a few minutes, we give it a shot. The wheels spin madly and kick up more sand, but the car goes nowhere.

“Let’s dig it out some more,” I say as I hop out of the car and start pushing more sand away.

A young man in khaki shorts and a designer shirt stops his BMW to help.

“Hi, thanks for stopping. They’re stuck. You know what to do, right? We need to dig the wheels out some more.”

“No, I don’t know what to do.”

“You never got stuck out here as a kid?” I ask.

“No, I’m not from around here.”

I stop digging and stand up, brushing the clean sand off my knees.

“OK. Well, it’s real important to remember never to allow both of the front wheels or both the back wheels to ever get in the sand. You’ll get stuck every time. You have to park parallel to the pavement and only allow two wheels on the same side of the car to touch the sand.  So, we have to dig the wheels out some more. Then, I’ll put the car in reverse and hit the gas while y’all push and lift the front end up at the same time, OK?”

“OK,” he says. I watch these two young men from different worlds work together.

When I try the gas again, we still have no luck. The wheels spin madly, but the car still doesn’t move an inch. As I get out of the car again, two older men in a pickup slow down. I notice not only their long, gray beards, but the gun rack mounted on the back window and the towline in the truck’s bed.

“Can we give y’all a haynd?  We got this here tow that’ll pull that car out in no time flat.” True rednecks, I think to myself as I notice the full cheek of one, which was, no doubt, evidence of chewing tobacco.

“Gosh, that would be great!” I reply.

They back the truck up and begin to hook the car up to the cable.

“Well, I guess y’all have it taken care of. This is so nice of you! We tried to dig it out, but the wheels just kept spinning in place.”

“Yeah, this soft sand out here, it’s like mud just about. Ain’t no getting’ a car out if you get both front wheels off the road.”

“Or both the back!” I add.

“That’s the truth.” he replies.

“Well, I’m going to take off then. Thank you.”  I wave to the young couple and say, “Good luck to y’all, and have a nice day.”

Turning to the young man, I can’t help but think he’s some kind of professional. “Thank you for stopping to help. I really appreciate it.”

“No problem,” the man says as he gets back into his BMW.

Driving off, I look in my rearview mirror. The two rednecks and the young, black man work together hooking up the car, while the little girl and her mother stand off to the side.

Look what I have been a part of.” I think to myself, “Life is good!” and I continue down the narrow stretch of island toward home.

Copyright 2012 by Margaret E. Biggs

Cape San Blas, FL. July 2012

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Cape San Blas July 2012

Meeting old friends near The Cape. A beat up cabin nestled in the woods amongst the pines and palmettos. St. Joe Bay a short walk away. The last remnants of Old Florida still exist to this day in a few areas, and this is one.

Morning spent walking the mudflats as the Bay is very shallow and the tide is out. There are horseshoe crabs and seashells, a few scallops and the fragile shells of the Sea Urchin. The Bay is a mirror of the morning sky. The stillness is stunning. And I thank God.

Our day’s adventure begins with a walk up the Bay. We soak up the natural beauty. Collecting a few sea urchins, abandoned shells and driftwood, I am happy with the day’s finds. The walk is leisurely as we want to see all we can see and smell all the smells, let the sea air permeate our bodies and the warm saltwater soak into our skin. There is little conversation. Hours pass.

Of the 5 or 6 times I have walked The Cape I have only managed to find the path across twice. It is not well marked but no matter as few people bother with the trek.

It is hot and we carry our water and lunch in a backpack. The crickets sing.

With a storm approaching from the East, the decision is made to cross over to the Gulf though once again we did not find the path and it is nowhere in sight.

We walk over the dune and into the heavily wooded interior of Cape San Blas. Through the Scrub Oaks, Short Leaf Pine and Palmettos we wind, marveling at the beauty of the deep greens above us and the rust color of the pine needles at our feet.

There are large areas of Deer Moss, inviting a touch. As children we collected it to use around the Manger Scene at Christmas. My Canadian friend’s responds that they would buy it for the same reason. Lucky me. Though we watch for  small cacti and thorny vines, we inevitably get scratched.  No matter as we can hear The Gulf in the distance and we continue on.

The trees are not tall.  The foliage above is thick and we can see little of the sky. There are no strong shadows and we are grateful for the clouds that have rolled in as it is a relief from the heat. We feel the air cool and are compelled to move faster so as to avoid the thunderstorm, if we can.

A hill covered in pine needles is spotted in the distance. It is difficult to climb as our feet slide in the fine sand. It is an opportunity to see where we are and we crawl up and slide and crawl up again through the top of the trees to a view that is spectacular. The blue-green waters of the Gulf can be seen beyond the large, sparkling white dunes which are dotted with golden sea oats and the sculptural formations of the oaks, shaped by decades of enduring harsh winds.

Behind us is a valley of green we know to be the top of the maritime forest undisturbed by man. We gasp at its expanse having just been lost in its interior beauty. The green of the treetops contrast beautifully with the dark gray of the approaching storm beyond and when we turn around to take in the Gulf view, the clear sky above her is a testament to the rapidly changing weather of summer.

Dolphins are spotted near shore and we follow the lead of our children running with abandon down the large dune feeling as though we are no older than they.

Though we know better than to swim with a storm so nearby, we must. All of us relish the cool, salty water, we splash, float and swim with smiles. Thunder is the sign there is no more time to swim and we all head towards shore. With leisure we eat our sandwiches as though the day is clear. There is no place to take cover other than below a large oak, which would be unwise. A storm so large will have powerful lightening should it break and the last place one should take shelter is below anything relatively tall. We are wet already anyway and the walk down the Gulf to the car is far. No reason to worry as there is little we can do to avoid the storm. After a while we begin our walk.  Daniel walks closer to the dunes to look for shells at the high tide line. Ben stops at each roped area protecting the buried eggs of a sea turtle.

My two sons walk together well ahead of the rest. We are often fifty yards or more apart in our own inner world basking in the beauty of this incredible place.

The rain never did fall. Our adventure ends with the walk through the pines and palmettos to our car.

Shell Spiral

"Shell Spiral" 24x24" Oil on Canvas

"Shell Spiral" 24x24" Oil on Canvas

There is always more to my work than what meets the eye.  Like nature and life, messages  are often there to inspire and  encourage us. What can be  viewed as simply a painting of  a broken shell for example, is  really much more.

“Shell Spiral” pictured here, is  a 24 x 24″ oil on canvas. The  shell is lying on the sand in  the light of the morning sun. I chose as my subject the beauty  of a broken shell with two  whole, smaller shells by it’s  side.

Most people by the time they reach middle age and often before, have had to suffer through several hardships and challenges. Our hearts have been broken. Yet if we choose to move through the suffering, we can find a deeper meaning to our pain. There is a silver lining, there is a dawn. We are broken and enlightened at the same time. Our lives become fuller as a result. We are capable of loving more deeply, giving more generously, living more fully. This is not to say we will not continue to have our set-backs and sadness. That is part of what defines life. Yet if we so choose, we will learn to move through the pain more quickly, we will grow in wisdom, we will bounce back more readily. In so doing we will have a greater capacity to give of ourselves to this beautiful and ailing world.

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